It's been too long to say it's old =D

It's been quite a while since I made my last blog which i find quite funny in a way. Usually I'd be in a more depressing mood but since this is after my philosophy final...it feels completely different...like...ya know...brain dead =P Guess that can't be helped at all.

When I think about things that has happened for the past four to five months, it is actually vague or nonexistent. It can't be helped if I don't want to remember anything. I dunno, I guess things are like this for a reason like my depression and all the various things that are attached to me. The thing that does stand out the most is seeing her happy. There's nothing else that I remember quite clearly...face wise...in my entire being though...I have no clue what I'm trying to say exactly. Things are meant to happen for a reason and I will always accept that no matter the situation.

Hm...I can't wait for my SAT scores to come out so I can see how badly I did. Since I'm Asian people would think I'm super smart and the world would end if I wasn't but fuck them. Other than that...I have to pass my classes and I doubt I'll pass philosophy with a "C" or better...so much for being a good student though it can't be helped for the most part. *Sigh* I wonder if I should do some Facebook Quizzes to pass the time but then again I have better things to do than that.

So it came to pass that two of my friends have miraculously returned to life after vanishing for a period of time. One was on the verge of suicide before somebody pulled him out and he moved to Arizona to start anew. The other...well...let's just say he had some kids with another guy as well as prepare the home for the bundles of joy.

I think my mom has finally noticed my depression after all these years that I've had it even though I haven't been diagnosed with depression yet. If I can't worry about people then they have to worry about me or so the world goes but I guess that's to be expected from a person. I don't spend a lot of time taking care of myself like I'm supposed to so I guess I'm leading my health into a downfall which doesn't look too pleasant anymore. I know my family cares about me but it doesn't seem like my mom and dad really shows it...probably cause I'm causing some tensions with them that I initially don't want and yet it can't be helped at the same time. Maybe that's supposed to happen though I'm not exactly sure.

I still have yet to find the roots of all of my other problems aside from depression. My theory that empathy can be known is if the person has be reincarnated but of course that can't be proved no matter how hard I try but it is plausible and does make some sense. *sigh* I think I need to see a professional about those issues.

Eh...I think I'm thinking a little too much besides...I have a critique to finish for tomorrow, my music final tomorrow, and more japanese to learn since I just started a few days ago XD

Sleep tight within a world of dreams that is fabricated from your thoughts
Wait for the sun to rise and look upon a new day
But that new day may be your last if you aren't too careful
Who knows what could happen to you
Maybe the genuine hit man will get you or maybe not