Identities

Today has been a strange day that doesn't seem to work out for me in the long run. I mean, ever since last Wednesday or Thursday, I haven't been able to get a good night sleep because of my stability but I am still unstable though...sadly. Other than that, nothing of great interest actually occurred besides the fact that I posted two new stories at yiffstar under the story series of "Country of the Forgotten" or something similar to that (plus or minus a few words). I'm such a hopeless person when it comes to life as I continue to try and run from reality. I guess that this is one way that I can cope with my problems that drive at me internally.

There is always a real and fake side to every personality but not many people tap this section because after a while things start to get confusing. I have personal experience because it's still going on right now since I wear two masks for all I know and show a different side of me to two different sets of people, those who look and those who don't. I can't find what I really am because I have lost sight of my true self, that true identity that makes me different from others. The self image that I created is a confusing one because I think it's been split between these two audiences and it seems that the true me is another audience in my life so I suppose I have three audiences looking at me. The split that occurs drives people insane and confuses them as they look for themselves but I know that everything always starts with small steps. The first small step though is what I don't know. People will say that it's getting help but I think it's different. I think that the first step is not help but something much simpler, maybe something like observation. People can't get help without observation. It does develop though, that is a good thing and eventually we, people who are lost and confused, will get out of that state of confusion and only have one identity to show to everyone.