Thoughts

So much for a happy day not that I have many anyways because of how depressing and unhappy I am even though those two words mean the exact same thing but I felt such a great need to place them in near each other for the sake of me being happy and yet I'm not happy as I continue to spiral down into life with the rest of the people who share the same fates as I do but never the same personality because then that would just be plain creepy so to wrap up this happy and joyous sentence and there I go with another synonym but anyways I didn't have such a great day cause all I did was watch tv and work on a project that is completely retarded and stupid in my opinion along with any other hw assignments I have to do thats due on thanksgiving week. Wow...that's really long.

Thoughts are something that happen on their own based on what we see in during our day and throughout our own lives. It is interesting how they form but it is also a mystery why we think that way. The thoughts could be happy or sad, angry or calm. It mostly depends on our reactions to what is presented before us in some situation such as a restaurant when tasting the meal you order. Everyone thinks differently and there are days when more than one person thinks the same thought whether it be at the same time or not.

My thoughts work in the same way but I've recently discovered that my thoughts are also special in their own way when it came to emotions. It is true that emotions effect how you think but for me, what I think effects my emotions. It is quite opposite than what it is supposed to be. My demeanor thoughts are demonic and yet angelic. It is a struggle that storms throughout my mind and torments my body not that some people would understand the pain and difficulties that I go through throughout my day to day life. I mean, it shows in its own way how my mind is both demonic and angelic based on what I say and act. My words support both feelings and it is up to the recipient to decide how they want to take the words. It is quite perplexing if you ask me.